Mushy

An open letter to a crush:
the conyo way...
(Hey! I am just emulating
these emo kids today. I just
feel like being senti and all...)


So i guess the time i get
to be reborn is the day that you leave me
Dont get me wrong,
I have nothing against you
You are perfection in human form
No tinge of evil
save for a wicked sense of humor
which i totally adore.

I die every day that were together -
little stabs,
little pricks,
little pinches.
I suffocate in your being.

I m just so happy to be
where you are,
I cant stand it when I
lose sight of you.

I knew this was all temporary,
were just friends,
plain old buddies, nothing more
nothing less.

That kills me
knowing that you cant see
beyond what we are now...
that i am just somebody to share
things with and not do stuff with.

Always relegated to the sidelines.

I will remain dying till you leave,
which will be soon.
By then, the gaping hole of
your memories etched in my mind
will haunt me and perhaps
strengthen me to believe
that maybe I was something more
to you than just a friend.